UPDATE!!

Well let's see here I guess I should start off with my weight on Friday's I weigh and since I last checked in here on the 12th I have weighed twice more. On the 18th I weighed 286 and I was so disappointed. And yesterday on the 25th I weighed 284! So I had lost another two pounds I was very pleased of course but I kind of almost expected more because that is still just 1 pound a week. Still I feel better and with only four pounds I can tell a difference both in my appearance and in my health. Only four more pounds to go to finally make it to a total loss of 40 pounds will I make it? I think so if I could ever go to 279 I think it would give me a lot more umph! I haven't been able to go to the gym lately because Nat is home and I have to come straight home to get her but Yesterday she and I spent almost 5 hours there!! I worked harder yesterday than I think I ever have in the 7 years I have been trying to lose weight by going to the gym. My next big fear is this fall I start college to finish my teaching degree which I really want to do. How on earth will I work 65 to 75 hours a week, go to school full time and exercise 4 to 5 days a week!! I don't know how, but I know I have to do all these things for my life to be what I want it to be. I also am in the process of writing all these blogs and two books. I am certainly making up for all these years I have wasted feeling sorry for myself!!

I am at it again!

Well I am finally getting back on track and doing something to save my life. I started on Wednesday of this week going back to the gym and it nearly killed me. Where I could exrcise before for more than two hours I could barely do fifteen minutes. In just two months time of laying out my blood pressure has skyrocketed my back pin has come back and I can barely walk without getting winded. I had gained 7 pounds! So I was back up to 288. Now as you may remember Friday is weigh day so I was very pleased to see 286! I have lost two pounds and my BIG FEAR is I will get back to 281,282 and then hit that same old roadblock. I will keep you posted!